I decided to participate in this. The reason why a semicolon is drawn on the wrist to represent suicide awareness is because a semicolon is a punctuation mark used where a sentence COULD have ended, but it didn't.
So the semicolon shows that my life could have ended, but didn't. Because I was once a self-mutilator. I once was a person who took out all of my pain by hurting myself. I was bullied and had the lowest self-esteem, and by hurting myself, I was letting the bully win. I have been bullied my whole life. In 2nd grade i was cornered by a few boys in my class and they all just kept spitting on me. I just took it, and the thing that angers me the most is that I did NOTHING about it. I didn't tell my parents. I didnt tell an adult. I didn't stand up for myself... I was vulnerable. So it continued. I had no friends. And in 6th grade, no one liked me. I had no one there for me. no friends, no family, just no one. So i was bullied by these girls and they got the principal to yell at me, and I never told him what they did to me. So they won. and in 7th grade, I was bullied again. because I was different. Then it happened again. I was bullied by more girls too and they also made the principal think that I was the bad guy. I got yelled at. It got better in 8th grade. But I was still pushed around and bullied.
So then when I started highschool, It happened again, but I did more about it. I still get bullied. But I've learned to stand up for myself and other people, because I was tired of being that vulnerable kind girl who didn't do anything about bullies... Now that people know that I'll keep telling the principal about their bullying and it will get worse each time for them if they don't stop, I'm not bullied as much anymore. Now that they know that if they push me too far, I will gladly slap them. They see me as a person who won't do anything about it, but what they don't know is that I'll become an aggressive bitch, but I won't show that aggression. I'll speak my mind and tell them to fuck off, or I'll say something witty and they'll get mad. And If I'm pushed too far, the next thing they're gonna be meeting is my hand across their face.
It took me alot to get this far. Now I'm not bullied as much. Now I stand up for myself. I have people there for me. I could have kept hurting myself, I could have kept being vulnerable, I could have kept cutting my arms and my stomach.... Even though many scars are still in both of those places, The point is that I could have been pushed far enough to want to commit suicide. But you know what, I didn't. I fought for a long time to get this far. And now I'm better. I still sometimes have low self-esteem issues. But I'm still doing much better. I'm a fighter. A person who understands. A person who has been through enough to know how to defend myself and others.
I want to dedicate this to Amanda Todd and other victims of suicide. I did this to show how much I care about them, and I cried after reading Amanda Todd's story. Because no one deserves to go through what that poor girl went through... She lost so much, and then her life... It upsets me that she is gone because of stupid people. I'm furious that she was treated so horribly by idiots. So I have made a promise that I will stand up for anyone who is getting bullied, and I'll be there for whoever has no one... I'll listen and be the shoulder to cry on.
My name is Lauren Evans.